Just Reflecting (and some things that turn me on)

Due to what turned me on as a submissive and the kind of submissive I ached to be in my day-to-day led me to believe I would not enjoy being a Dominant. I was so sure submission was my place. At first I used my submission to play the Dominant, not be the Dominant. I wanted a Master to serve and a collar around my neck.

But then I did… stuff.

I did some mean stuff. I had massages when I wanted them. I had him dry me off after a shower. I used him sexually. I spanked him.

And, as it turned out, I really enjoyed myself and so did my vagina.

One night, I found myself dressed in nothing but heels and a strap-on, bending him over the bed and fucking his ass. I assumed I would like it, but it ended up being more than a like. I was literally dripping down my legs. I remember thinking, “What the hell is going on down there?” I also remember thinking it would be better (for me) if he enjoyed it a little less.

So, yeah…

I don’t want to be submissive anymore, but I am glad I was one.

It is interesting, the ideas I have about the way D/s works have stayed the same. And the same things turn me on, just in a different way. It also shaped some beliefs of what I see as Dominant and submissive acts.

For example, I do not plan on giving another blow job and I will definitely not allow my (male) sub to cum on my body. (My hand, okay, but that’s where I draw the line.) I gave many blow jobs as a sub, not because I enjoyed them, but because I enjoyed pleasing him, which made it an act of submission. It was humiliating when he came on my body or face. Therefore, I cannot picture myself doing either as a Domme. However!, my vagina and I are totally okay with sticking my cock down his throat and having him cum on himself.

I also still want a group of three, except now I want two subs instead of being the bottom sub.

My opinions about punishment, chores, service, etc., have stayed the same. Although they might have evolved a little.

I want to treat my sub the way I wanted to be treated. Cruelly, like a thing… because I love them.

I expect the same things of my sub as I expected of myself as a sub — to obey and be pleasing.

I could go on and on.

It’s kinda neat how things have turned out.

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28 comments

  1. And this right here is what I love most about the journey in leather and D/S. So much to uncover, discover, experience. It transcends us, changes us, molds us, evolves us. It’s a beautiful thing. I hope you continue to discover more fruit on your tree in this lifestyle! ๐Ÿ˜€ Thank you for sharing, Ms. Dixie!

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    1. I agree, it is SO beautiful.

      D/s helped me find myself and I havenโ€™t stopped finding pieces since (Iโ€™m a little over 4 yrs in). D/s gives me life…I feel so alive when I am swimming in it. In other words, I ainโ€™t given it up! ๐Ÿ™‚

      Thanks for the comment, Brozo.

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  2. It’s like going to a clothes store and trying on what the other ones are wearing. Many find their roles in D/s evolve into a complete reversal when they get familiar with the territory. This give credence to the saying that many dominants were once submissives!

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  3. Thank you for sharing your thoughts Ms Dixie:

    I can so relate about the feeling of using my strap-on on my husband. I get so wet I really enjoyed hearing that your legs get wet. I took this as you are dripping from your Vagina. I completely understand the feelings as It is unimaginable until you do it, I enjoy it most when he is on his back on the bed or table and I am standing looking right into his eyes while my 10 inch is sliding in and out the full length. We have got so good at this that within 3 to 5 minuets he starts to flow his white sauce into a pool on his stomach. It takes a while to fully milk him, this is my favorite part , when I just start throbbing, it is the peak of Female Domination over a man I think, it is an awesome feeling to watch him ooze with each pump. I feel so entirely in control of him.

    I have turned around the blow job thing and have him drink my pee directly from my pussy, I got the idea and mental position from that, I look at it as he is consuming my cum like after a blow job for a male, its just that my semen is my nectar.
    D

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  4. Sounds pretty amazing, Ms. Dixie! I honestly cannot wait for you to have a sub and be writing about those adventures. In your fantasy about having two subs…what are their genders, or does it matter? Always curious ๐Ÿ™‚

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  5. Wow Misty thank you for that it was so interesting!
    I’m pleased to see you feeling confident and sexually alive! I do hope your future submissive will blog because I would love to read from both points of view ๐Ÿ˜Š

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