I am stuck in the present, fighting my past to become who I want to be. It is very uncomfortable and I just want it to be done. I want to be on the other side.

I went through this as a sub and I didn’t want to do it again, alas, here I am. *sigh*

I have not been happy with myself lately because I know I can be more. The future me is waiting impatiently behind the curtain for her time. I’d let her out if I knew how…

There is so much I have to overcome and so much that I’m up against…

I have been this other way for so long and I know it takes time to change, but, damnit, I want to be more right this second.



  1. You can do this, Ms. Dixie. I relate more than you know. I remind myself the road to hell may be paved with good intentions but the road ahead is paved in the pattern I choose it to be.

    Hang in there. It’s worth the fight.


    -Pup King

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    1. I like that, the road ahead is paved in the pattern I choose it to be.

      It is uncomfortable trying to figure out the new pattern, mostly because I have to look back and reflect on the old.

      I don’t know how to stop fighting. 🙂

      Thanks for taking the time to comment.

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      1. I understand that. it’s something that I’ve delt with my entire life.

        How to stop fighting.

        You’ll get there. In time you won’t need to look back anymore and you’ll be onward and upward. ❤

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