Yep, it is the 3 Day Quote Challenge (Day 1)

Rules:

  • Thank the person who nominated you
  • Post a quote for three consecutive days (1 quote for each day)
  • Share why this quote appeals so much to you
  • Nominate three different different bloggers for each day

I started looking for quotes yesterday and I have to admit, it was kinda fun. Thank you, Lady Clio, for nominating me and the momentary distraction.

Lately, fear and I have gotten pretty close. We wake up together and go to sleep together. Fear will also pop in throughout the day just to say hello. So nice, huh?

I keep going because of the other side. I will not take the easy road because it is not the best road. I have learned that I can accomplish goals and get through hard times while being scared. Fear is along for the ride but I refuse to let it stop me from getting what I want.


I am now going to not nominate anyone for this challenge because I simply do not want to (maybe this was the challenging part?). If there is anyone reading this that wants to participate I encourage you to do so. Perhaps step it up a few notches and do 10-20-30 days of quotes… it could be fun!

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Vague Updates

Every time I sit down to write I find that I just don’t have the energy, or I don’t want to write about what is on my mind, or I can’t write about what is on my mind.

The problem is real.

I am fairly sure I am free to speak my mind, but I don’t want to take the chance. It’s just not worth it.

I’m still having problems sleeping. I’m still stressed. Still a lot of things that I don’t want to write about anymore.

A week ago today I turned my kids lives upside down. So there’s that.

Ugh! I am so ready for this to be in my past!

I have been drawing every day and I am working more hours, both are good things.

So, yeah, that about sums it up.

A Song

BORN TO DIE

Feet don’t fail me now
Take me to the finish line
Oh my heart it breaks every step that I take
But I’m hoping at the gates, they’ll tell me that you’re mine
Walking through the city streets
Is it by mistake or design?
I feel so alone on a Friday night
Can you make it feel like home if I tell you you’re mine?

It’s like I told you, honey
Don’t make me sad, don’t make me cry
Sometimes love is not enough and the road gets tough, I don’t know why
Keep making me laugh
Let’s go get high
The road is long, we carry on
Try to have fun in the meantime

Come take a walk on the wild side
Let me kiss you hard in the pouring rain
You like your girls insane
So choose your last words, this is the last time
‘Cause you and I, we were born to die

Lost but now I am found
I can see but once I was blind
I was so confused as a little child
Tried to take what I could get
Scared that I couldn’t find
All the answers, honey

Don’t make me sad, don’t make me cry
Sometimes love is not enough and the road gets tough, I don’t know why
Keep making me laugh
Let’s go get high
The road is long, we carry on
Try to have fun in the meantime

Come take a walk on the wild side
Let me kiss you hard in the pouring rain
You like your girls insane
So, choose your last words, this is the last time
‘Cause you and I, we were born to die
We were born to die
We were born to die

Come and take a walk on the wild side
Let me kiss you hard in the pouring rain
You like your girls insane

Don’t make me sad, don’t make me cry
Sometimes love is not enough and the road gets tough, I don’t know why
Keep making me laugh
Let’s go get high
The road is long, we carry on
Try to have fun in the meantime

Come take a walk on the wild side
Let me kiss you hard in the pouring rain
You like your girls insane
Choose your last words, this is the last time
‘Cause you and I, we were born to die (we were born to die)

Songwriters: ELIZABETH GRANT, JUSTIN PARKER
Born To Die lyrics © Sony/ATV Music Publishing LLC

Can’t Sleep

I’m tired of being tired.

Things are happening. Life is changing. It is hard. Like, can’t sleep well without taking something, shoulders and neck constantly hurt, feel alone, want to scream, need a hug, an orgasm (or 10), and an autopilot button, kind of hard. Fortunately, all of it seems to be going as well as it can. There are hard parts still to come — the parts I have been dreading the most.

On the other side…

I am ready. I am excited to see who I can be and what I will do. The possibilities make me smile.

I am What I am

Since I have been blogging, I have written about the good and the bad — you know, share the journey, give something that people can relate to and perhaps feel better about myself along the way. I find myself in a place where I can write about neither good nor bad, so what the heck am I supposed to write about?! I am severely limited and it is driving me nuts. I do not like being limited.

Does anyone have any questions, ideas, or things to ponder?

Among the many things that swirl around in my mind, Dominance has popped up quite often. No surprise there, however the thoughts surrounding it are different.

When I came across D/s, my life changed. It woke me up, put color in my life and I finally found a way that I could enjoy sex. More than that, it gave sex importance, it put positive emotions with the act, and I can’t recall ever having that before D/s. Sex was always unimportant and if there was emotion, it was not positive.

This lifestyle gives me a place to thrive. I need it.

Even though submission is in me, I have given it up completely. Well, I guess I shouldn’t say never, but is very unlikely and if I do ever find myself wanting to submit, I will never submit to a man and it will only be as a bottom, not a sub.

So, you see, Dominance is important to me. It is important that I do it well, that I do it the smart way, the effective way, the way that weaves it into my life in a realistic and sustainable way. It is so much more than sex, it is a life.

I am becoming more sure of my place. This is my path. The only way I will fail is if I give up, and I am not giving up.

I need some air

I’m suffocating

Don’t give up
Just keep moving
One inch at a time
Because if you stop,
It’s all gonna fall apart
You’ll fall apart

I can’t breathe

Find the strength to take
Find the answers
Fix it all
Because if you don’t,
It’s all gonna crumble
You’ll crumble

I can’t move

I want to fall
I want to sink without getting wet
I want to let go
Because if I do,
It will all go away

But I can’t
I can’t fall apart
Even though I’m cracking
Can’t crumble
Even though my world is
Just gotta keep going
Gotta keep moving